A flashback to some inspirational writing I wrote as I was turning 25. I am about to turn 38. The years since then have been hard, and yet, so much easier than my early years. Life is a journey, if you can learn to live and trust yourself along the way. You'll grow into your challenges, rather than lose hope and stop sailing into new seas. Believe in you. 💗 As I come to my 25 th birthday, I find myself reflecting on the first quarter of my life. I have survived birth, childhood, the breakdown of my parents’ marriage, the death of my father and several others, stepfathers, isolation, never ending change, moving houses and schools. I have survived adolescence, puberty, the battle of self-esteem, identity, relationships, sex, social dynamics, love, the gauntlet of drugs and alcohol, power and perfectionism. I have survived a science degree. To have my innate ignorance challenged and to be inspired by the amazing, exquisite beauty that exists in this universe. From the atom,...
If I free myself from the illusion of legacy. And realise the truth. That everything I achieve, that I create, will one day, ultimately, be dust. Then I am able to play openly and wholeheartedly in the sands of creativity. Knowing the tides of time will clear my mistakes as well as my victories. Leaving behind only the faintest trace of my existence. In that knowledge I am unafraid, emboldened. To take leaps of faith and action far greater than the self-conscious longings for immortality can ever truly realise.
I am the only person who can see these problems, because they are mine. As I heal myself, I stop projecting my pain out onto the rest of the world I tell myself, "Stop trying to save the world and save yourself Direct your love inward and heal Direct your logic outward, think and do your work." "Stop trying to fix the world Love and heal yourself Nurture that inner child, that child needs you." "You can be logical later, be kind and loving now. That is what your heart needs." "Believe in you. Believe that you can do good things, and then you will. Just start, take that first step, believe in you." June 2013
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